"I once wanted to be a BUTTERFLY..."

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Makati, Philippines
Organized Chaos. A storm calmed by the King. Daughter of the best Abba. ♥ I write because it's my way of expressing what I couldn't say out loud.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

UNTITLED (May 2012)


Finding my way in the busy street of life...
Rushing... Running...
Blinded by light...
I looked up and saw that calm sky...
I realized I was hurrying for nothing but disguise...

Leading where? I wonder...
Going further and further...
Taking it in...
Swallowing whole...
Am I ready for this?
I heard no answer...

I was pretending...
Pushing hard... Pushing hard...
No real purpose but to simply go...
Go with the flow...
Living...
Living for nothing...

Monday, June 18, 2012

The Re L(a)unching

"Give me the wisdom and knowledge to lead them properly, for who could

possibly govern this great people of yours? -Solomon (2 Chronicles 1:10)


After decades (It feels like it!) of not being able to spend d-group time with this young ladies I finally had the courage to meet them again. I got so busy with a lot of issues in my life that I forgot the young lives that God has entrusted me with. They are my Spiritual Children in the Spiritual Family of God. (I'm sounding "churchy" here. eewww!) Bare with me. There's no other way to put it into words.

I have a spiritual mother too. A lady whom I owe what I have reached today in my journey in God's plan. When I say Spiritual Mother (vis a vis) it's someone who guides us in church. It's like the older sister I never had, the extra mother whom I get to share everything what I could not to my biological mother (In my case, it was.) Without that person who helped and patiently guided me to get out of my shell and directed me to the right path I don't know where I will be right now. I'll probably be one of those who feels lost and still finding their purpose in this world.


I still have a spiritual mother around but It's time to take my part to be a spiritual mother too (Am I that old?! lol.) I guess it's time to pass on the nurturing that I have received before to this new generation of future leaders. MY KIDS are a handful. That's a fact! if they get to read this I'm sure they would agree. This are young people who spent half their lives in church since they are Pastors/Church Leaders kids. Unlike me who grew up knowing "worldly" ways this girls are not so aware with it. (Tama ba? maybe not! hehe.) They grew up knowing the Word and the great JC so it has really been a challenge what topics I could share and discuss with them. They have very strong personalities that I'm starting to learn how to handle (So help me God!) and the mind of geniuses that could comprehend almost anything.

I'm happy that God has chosen me to be a part of this girlalas lives. And this time I'm praying with all my heart that I would be able to lead them properly. That in me they would see that "other mother" that I was so grateful to have.


Re L(a)unching...  (MOA 6/17/12)

 Jay, Tobae, Me and Dane @ The Dennis Grill

 Nice one Patzi

Hot Chocolate and Coffee for us.

 Tobae, Jay and Patzi


 My Kids








I love them this way... <3 <3 <3

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Untitled (6/13/12)

Change is constant,
That's a fact.
But to be open to change,
Is something I lack.
I'm loving the comfort,
Of the familiar things.
I'm scared to wander.
A lot of fear, I think.

You might say I'm a coward.
The hell I care!
But to do what I want,
Is what I prefer.
I'd rather find joy
In the things that I do.
Than pretend to be happy
On the things you push me into.

Say what you want,
Just throw in to my face.
But I'm staying where I am,
Because I believe this is my race.
And if I stumble
And get trampled on.
I wouldn't regret my decision,
I would simply carry on...




*With all the uncertainties I have to deal with... My heart whispers: "Let Thy will be done."